Mistress — Melissa Febos”s True Story with a Happy Ending
Today, Melissa Febos is known as an author and professor. But not long ago, her work was more interesting and erotic.
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Exposure
Before Melissa published a book about her life, no one knew she was a mistress and a heroin addict. After the book”s release, a curious public bombarded Febos with questions. “What do you mean when you tie people up?” Some asked. “Aren”t you afraid this might cause problems at work?” Others scoffed. Melissa hid well—in the heat, she wore long sleeves and tried not to reveal her tattoo to her students. Even her fiancé”s relatives didn”t know about her secret past. But she doesn”t regret her book and is proud of it. And now she tells you her story.
Bad Boys, Good Money
When I was 21, I answered an ad in the Village Voice. “I needed an attractive young woman to role play and dominate as nurse and patient. No experience required. Good salary. No sex.” I was a university student, an aspiring writer, a magazine intern, and a heroin addict. 3 years of work experience. As an 18-year-old girl, I naively believed that a happy childhood and a good education would save me from all the problems that the average drug addict faces. I smoked weed, then moved on to cocaine, and then to meth. I lived alone in Boston and had a lot of fun. She then began dating an older man who turned out to be a heroin addict. Within a few months I became a drug addict. After three years, I realized that intelligence alone is not enough here. I didn”t know how to get out of here. I moved to New York to attend university and get away from the man who I believed was the cause of all my problems. But my heroin addiction moved with me. I was alone with heroin in my bedroom and in public restrooms. And sometimes she visited hot spots where local dealers hung out. I couldn”t blame my boyfriend for everything. It was just me and my addiction, which I hid from everyone. I had many sleepless nights due to detoxification and I promised myself over and over again that it would never happen again. But she couldn”t do anything about it. And she needed money. I”m tired of working in a restaurant. The nature of dominatrix work was as consistent with my feminist beliefs as any other sex profession. And being a dominatrix is a bit exciting, isn”t it? For a while the work was exciting for me. I spent my evenings in fabulous costumes — I was a nurse, a police officer and a femme fatale in leather. She was paid $200 an hour to act out the fantasies of strange men, reenact other people”s childhood traumas, and discover her own dark side. I remember standing in the dressing room, surrounded by cabinets with mirrors. Office building in the heart of Manhattan. The mirrors reflected the bodies of other young women who worked with me. All of them are in different stages of undressing — some are in underwear, others are in fishnets, others are tying each other with corset straps. I”m 22 years old and on my lap is a university textbook written in pink marker — I”m a young woman, I have a lot of clothes, I”m wearing a lot of clothes, I”m wearing a lot of clothes,
I”m wearing a lot of clothes. My bag contains a bag of disposable syringes and heroin—not enough to keep my four-year addiction in check all night Read also: how I Cheated on My Wife—3 True Stories of What Not to Do
How many people in this world have cheated on their significant other at least once? Millions? Tens of millions? That”s why our heroes emerged among the traitors.
Juggling these unprecedented realities gave me strength and energy. After all, that”s the kind of tension a novelist”s life should be, right? I still got good grades in class; I still had to work on my writing. I still scribbled in my notebook and laptop and sat in the kitchen at BDSM Songles. By 23, I was no longer a student. I stopped writing and even reading. I dreaded going to work in this building. What had once seemed exciting now became humiliating. And even if there wasn”t sex, there were dual fantasies about strangers. And no one knew the whole story of my life. I was so tired.
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New Life
New Life
Melissa had no intention of telling the world her story. She was already grateful for the new “clean” life she was leading. But two years later, that night, with tears streaming down her face at the kitchen table, she became a graduate student and began taking science fiction classes. There Mel, along with other students, had to write a short memoir.
